Finally...

Finally, my final exam is over...
It's finished in both terms of the exam and the results. Haha... =P
I guess I rather worry about it one month later, and that I enjoy myself now.
It's weird that even though it's already semester break, I don't feel much happier if compared with last semester.
I didn't feel particularly excited of going home, which I thought I will.
I guessed maybe it's like what Edgar said, maybe it's a sign that I've adapted myself here.

Sitting in my room, facing my computer, I somehow feel bored.
Mainly is because most of my friends had gone back, and I still have to stay here for one more week.
I also starts thinking about my future, that is it good for me to continue studying here.
Many people ask me why I came here, since I have no interest in Engineering at all.
I can only say it's all about scholarship.
I don't know what should I study after my SPM.
I'm just like other people, applying for all sorts of scholarship, and study whatever I got.
At that time, I thought maybe following my Dad's legacy in becoming an engineer is good enough for me.

I like music, and I wish to study music, but that I can only wish.
Music is not a hot subject in Malaysia, so if I really want to study, I have to go overseas.
The main problem involves here is money problem, my family is not very rich.
I had surveyed quite a lot of music colleges and universities overseas after SPM, and I found another problem: I have no theory basic.
All the music stuffs I know, I learned them myself.
I still remember when I told the Australian at the survey booth that I play harmonica, he nearly burst out laughing.
I know I can't fulfill this dream of mine to become a famous musician, it is just a dream for me.

Then I accepted UTP's offer and start studying here, I found that UTP orchestra team is linked with Malaysia's Philharmonic Orchestra.
That makes me collect back all my hope to involve in music.
I started to join UTP orchestra basic classes, but it really disappoints me.
I only had one class with my so-called instructor for the whole semester.
That guy is good, but the committee of the team was bad enough.
They change the timetable depend on their time, and sometimes didn't even come to practice.
I like the Chinese Orchestra than UTPO, seriously speaking.

Now that the semester had ended, and we have to register for next semester.
As I was filling the registration form, I was thinking: "Should I do this? Where will I be after 4 to 5 years? What will I do? What can I do?..."
I really don't know, whether my choice is right or wrong.
I can only say, may God lead my way.
Wherever He leads me, I will just follow.

Since it's now the start of holidays, I wish all my friends Happy Holiday!
Wish you all have a good time in this one month time, and see you again next semester, if I'm still here.
So long! Bye! ^~^

Angel Sound

I want to talk about two singing groups that I like very much, one male group and another female one.
I start listening to their songs after I came into UTP, and I still like them a lot.

PUSSYCAT DOLLS
I don't know about the girls, but most of us guys like PCD very much.
These six sexy singers are really HOT!!!
Their songs are very nice, their MV better.
They like to move around in a very seducing way, and their favourite is dancing around vehicles.
(I mean on cars...)
My friends watch PCD's videos almost everyday, but they never get bored.
Luckily I'm not that crazy about them.... ^~^



IL DIVO
Oh, my God. Their singing are SUPER!!!
These four spanish young men have the most beautiful voices I've ever heard.
Whoever say that their singing are not nice, I will slowly influence you to like them. (like what I did to my friends.. ^-^)
Their singing really can makes one think that everything else in this world doesn't matter anymore.
I called it heavenly melody, just as a verse said in Chinese:
此曲只应天上有，人间能得几回闻。
If only I have half of their standard, that will be enough...

I hope people will enjoy their songs too.
I will try to listen to more songs, then maybe one day I will discover some other singing group better than them.
Haha... ciao! ^~^

社会的问题

刚才在念着书的时候，我一边开着收音机，刚好听到了988电台，听众在空中述心事的时段。
其中有一位叫阿May的女听众，她的故事让我立刻放下书本，专心聆听她所说的一切。
这位青年女子所面对的问题，是她已经意外地怀孕了，而男方要求她堕胎。
她怀孕已经三个多月了，她的男朋友执意要她打掉孩子。
她不知道怎么办才好，便打电话给电台，希望主持人给她一点意见。
那位平时很理智的主持人，顿时也不知道要说什么。
女生的男朋友给她两个选择：
一) 打掉孩子，继续他们的恋情。
二) 回去她父母那里，把孩子生下来，而他在三年里不会去找她。
这位女生不知道要怎么做，一方面不想打掉无辜的孩子，另一方面又怕她和她男朋友之间的关系会断掉。
在这段谈话中，女主持人还加了两个重点：
一) 三个月的婴儿已经几乎成形，堕胎对她来说是很危险的。
二) 如果坚持要把孩子生下来，她得考虑到经济问题。
这一段通话就以主持人劝告那位女生再跟她男朋友好好商量为结束。
如果还是没有结论，主持人建议她找男方的夫母谈谈。

我听完她的故事，心有感触，便拿出我的电脑，写下了这篇部落格。
一直都知道马来西亚有未婚妈妈的存在，但这是我第一次听到这么live的，感觉很不一样。
我在想，为什么在我们的社会中会有这种问题出现?
人类怎么会堕落到这种地步?
当这种事发生的时候，该负责任的又是谁呢?
唉... 这个世界上有太多的问题，太多的无奈。
人们渐渐忘记了存在的价值，生存的意义。
我只能祈祷，希望上帝保佑那位女生，让她能够获得第二次机会，重新再来。

My WORST Lecturer

Actually, I just want to share something about my Chemistry lecturer here.
I still remember the 1st lecture when we met him, he say that he is a Dr, and he finished his PHD somewhere in New Zealand or Canada.
(I forgot already...)
And then he said that he will dismiss us 10 minutes earlier in every lecture, as he knows our concentration last only about 40 minutes.
He seems like a professional, and we all are so impressed.
But that's was only during the 1st lecture...

Starting from the 2nd lecture onwards, we discovered that something is really wrong with him.
He is the worst lecturer I've ever met so far.
He can spend 1 hour discussing only 4 questions with us, I mean easy calculation questions.
Sometimes he didn't even know how to do the questions he set himself.
There's one time where the question require us to find volume of the liquid, but instead when he show on the OHP, he go and find the mass of the liquid.
We told him that he was wrong, but he kept on arguing with us on that. What the heck?!
Then at last he redo the calculation, and since it's already correct, we didn't further argue with him.

He once said that he'll let us go 10 minutes earlier in every lecture, but it turns out that his classes are always overtime.
Besides that, his way of teaching is really confusing.
Imagine that, he taught us rubbish in the lectures, and asked us to go back study lecture notes ourselves. What the hell?!
I'm already getting blur starting from Chapter 2 onwards, and I still don't understand a single thing about Organic Chemistry when he had already finished teaching Chapter 9.
Oh, my God. I don't know why I go to his classes.
Before Chemistry test 2, I attend Mr. Faisal Taha's extra class.
The things my lecturer teach for 4 weeks, I understand all in only 2 hours.
How come there's so much difference in the quality of teaching?!

Other than that, he's usually very impatient in the class.
He'll get furious even if some people just turn around and talk to friend.
His face which is already dark, will get darker everytime he start lecture.
I don't know why is he so angry.
It's not that he is Rector and everybody have to listen to him.
Frankly speaking, his lectures sucks...

Recently something happened that shocked me.
My friend whose test paper was wrongly marked, went to ask him about that.
Then he told my friend, that he's Dr, not Mr. (my friend mistakenly wrote Mr. in the space for lecturer's name)
I was really angry when my friend told me this, but I didn't particularly keep this in heart, as it's not me who 'kena'.

Today in the lecture, he started to scold us and say that he's disappointed with our test 2, and he expected us all to score above 80.
I want to shoot back him that time: "How can we get over 80 with such a lousy lecturer like u?!"
Then he say something that really startled me.
He said: "And one more thing, I'm a Dr, not Mr. Some of u still put my name as Mr. It's very irritating sometimes, u know? If u got title, then use the title...."
WHAT THE ****?!! I was really pissed off that time, and I think everyone in the class felt the same as me too.
He was lucky that I didn't take the broken chair seat in front of me and whack him in his head.
What kind of lecturer is this?!
Actually I was planning to write a complain letter to the Rector after the class, but then nobody seems to support me, so I didn't do it.

Actually I don't understand how UTP management works.
How could they let someone so terrible like Chandra Mohan to teach us Chemical Engineering students? Chemistry somemore...
He's totally a joke, and a jerk too.
I wonder where he get his PHD from, and how much he paid for that.
I just wish that my junior will be careful not to get him as lecturer or tutor...

I'm a FREAK!!!

I'm really a freak, or more accurately a movie maniac.
Since I got my new laptop, I've watched a lot of movies.
For example, I finished watching 21 episodes of Heroes in 3 days, and 121 episodes of Bleach in only 6 days. Imagine that...
I was wondering, if the tests and exam are all based on anime or movies, I'll definitely score A.



This anime is about a teenager whose fate had being changed in one night time, and he have to carry out his duty as a Death God to protect the world from evil. Damn nice! ^~^




This series is about a group of special people, who has their own unique power, and each play an important role in changing the world. Cool! ^-^



Honestly speaking, I don't know how to stop.
If I start to watch anime or series like this, I cannot stop watching until I finish. Guess that's my another weakness.
Since now it's near to my final exam, I figured out that I can only stop watching after I finish them.
Luckily, I've finally finished watching until the latest episode.
I will not start another new series again before my final exam finish.
May God forgive me for this, and may He strengthen my heart to study hard from now on.

I've Being Tagged!

A few days ago, my friend Philip tagged me on his blog.
At first I don't what should I suppose to do, then I realized I hv to answer the same questions as posted by him.
U hv to be patient if u want to see the post, b'coz it's damn long...
I spend almost 5 hours on this:


[Seven Things I'm Experiencing Now]
1) Tired-already many days didn’t have proper sleep.
2) Frustrated-I had a quarrel with a girl recently.
3) Stress-not sure what my test results will be.
4) Tension-my computer keep on lagging.
5) Hungry-I’m always hungry, but I don’t want to eat. (food in UTP sucks!)
6) Dizzy-spend too much time in front of my computer already.
7) Thinking-have to finish this tag Philip gave me before I sleep.


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[Seven Things I'm Thinking About Now]
1) Watching Spiderman 3.
2) Eating some tidbits.
3) What movie is nice.
4) The definition of friendship.
5) My cool Mum. (tomorrow is Mother’s Day)
6) Final exam coming soon. (Oh, no…)
7) Holiday coming soon. (Yeah!! ^~^)

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[Seven Things I'm Worrying About]
1) Final exam. (I hvn’t really study yet)
2) My future. (what path should I take?)
3) The world. (pollution and destruction of nature)
4) My brother. (he’s having PMR this year, but he’s still slumber…)
5) My spiritual life. (it has been long since I read my Bible)
6) Getting true friends in UTP. (what’s their definition of friendship?)
7) The friendship between me and her.

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[Seven Things I'm Happy About]
1) My family.
2) Get paid to study. (got pocket money somemore)
3) My Dad got promoted.
4) I got a new laptop. ^~^
5) I finish watching Bleach until the latest one in less than one week time. (damn cool!)
6) There are a lot of movies for me to watch in my com.
7) The tests are finally over. (but the final is coming. Haiz…)

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[Seven People I Treasure]
1) My elders (especially my Grandma), my parents, brothers and relatives.
2) My ‘daughters’. (back in Btu)
3) Ting Tze Liong and Raymond Chiong. (My best buddies in high school)
4) All my gang and friends in secondary school. (My ‘dirty’ gang, my ‘sisters’, gossip gang…)
5) My Kuan Moo Tuan friends. (I love Taiwan!! ^~^)
6) All my UTP friends (Philip, Yoon Yeh, Jia Haur, Jing Zhi,…)
7) All the girls that once appeared in my life..




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[Seven Things I Always Touch or Come In Contact With]
1) My accessories. (necklace, rings, bracelet…)
2) Clothes. (included underwear, pants and shoes)
3) My phone and wallet.
4) Internet. (mail, Friendster, blog,…)
5) My laptop. (DELL ^-^)
6) Toilet. (got business there)
7) My bed. (feeling sleepy nw…)

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[Seven Things I Want to Improve]
1) My music talent.
2) Find more true friends here in UTP.
3) Control my emotion.
4) Reduce rude or dirty words.
5) My studies.
6) My English, and also Cantonese.
7) My laptop. (no enough RAM =P)

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[Seven Things I'm Strong In]
1) Playing and learning music. (mostly wind instruments)
2) Singing??
3) 'Forest' trekking. (forest, not jungle..)
4) Commanding a matching squad.
5) Writing letters/poems/romantic stuffs.
6) Bullying my brothers. (Haha… but sometimes they bully me also…)
7) Talking crap. =P

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[Seven Things I'm Weak In]
1) Martial arts. (I never join one)
2) Studying. (Lazy…)
3) Time management.
4) Controlling my emotion.
5) Getting true friends around me.
6) Maintaining a relationship. (even harder to get into one…)

~Can't think of anything else...

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[Seven Things I Adore Eating]
1) Fruits. (especially just taken out of fridge)
2) Sweet things. (candies, chocolate,…)
3) Babi. (Haha… =P)
4) What my Mum cooks. (yummy…)
5) Western food. (lamb chop…)
6) Seafood. (crab, lobster,…)
7) Laksa Bintulu. (Oh, my God…)

~Wah... cannot tahan liao...
Hungry ah...

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[Seven Things I Adore Drinking]
1) Yogurt drink.
2) Cold drinks.
3) Justea. (a kind of tinned drink without gas)
4) Fruit juice.
5) Teh’O ais limau.
6) Sparkling. (Haha… =P)

~Errmmm... I think that's all...

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[Seven Things I Detest]
1) Dirtiness. (I like to be clean)
2) Creepy crawly things. (spiders, rats, lizards, snakes,…)
3) People who cares only for themselves.
4) People who likes and promotes violence.
5) People who don’t appreciate the environment.
6) People who don’t treat me sincerely.
7) People who will backstab me.

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[Seven Things I Cannot Live Without]
1) Daily needs. (air, water, food,…)
2) God. (coz He provides all the things I need to live)
3) Music. (music is my life)
4) Friends.
5) Love.
6) Handphone. (I’ll suffer without it..)
7) Money. ($$$)

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[Seven Things I Fear to Show]
1) My ball-and-stick model. (guys know what I mean, right? =P)
2) My teeth. (I got crooked teeth, but most of times I unintentionally show it when I smile… ^-^)
3) My tears.
4) My dark side. (I’m a beast, trust me…)
5) My emotion. (but most of the time it’s very obvious)
6) My brother. (he’s more handsome than me, I scared all the girls ‘kena pikat’ by him. Haha… =P)

~Nothing else I'm afraid to show... (I think so...)

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[Seven Things I'll Never Want to Talk About]
1) My body. (especially with my Dad)
2) My fear. (especially in front of girls)
3) My ex-GF.
4) My failure.
5) My foolishness.
6) The fear of people wanting to punch me…
~I really don't want to talk about that...

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[Seven Things I Will Want to Do]
1) Study music.
2) Love a girl.
3) Be famous in music territory.
4) Buy my Dad a nice car.
5) Have my own family.
6) Die. (I wonder what death is like)
7) Go to Heaven.

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[Seven Things I Will Never Play Around When/With]
1) My elders.
2) My parents.
3) My GF. (if I hv one)
4) My feelings.
5) My future.
6) Drugs, or anything hazardous to me.
7) God and devil, one should not mess around with the Holy and evilness. (do not insult the Holy, never deal with evil)

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[Seven Things I Wonder About]
1) Why is this world such a hard place to live in?
2) Why people want to hurt other people or animals?
3) Why do we have to study?
4) Why the world is so unfair?
5) Why is human so selfish?
6) How will human being ever satisfy?
7) How would people around me act when I died?

~Add one more: Why nobody seems to like me?


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[Seven Questions I Hope My Friends Would Respond To]
1) What do u treat me as?
2) What are my good and bad points?
3) What are ur definition of friendship?
4) How will u respond when u see me sad?
5) How many marks will u rank me? (1-10)
6) Will u still remember me when we depart later?
7) What will u say at my death bed? (if I die earlier than u)

(Pls do answer this, and pls be sincere...)

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[Seven Things (or People) I Would Love to See]
1) My family and relatives.
2) My secondary school friends.
3) The beauty of nature.
4) My non-Christian friends become Christian.
5) There’s no more war and violence in the world.
6) The arrival of revelation.
7) Heaven.

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[Seven People I Wanna Tag]
1) Raymond Chiong
2) Ting Tze Liong
3) Mei Fang
4) Wendy
5) Hui Ching
6) Jesse (my senior)
7) If possible, my parents. (it’ll be fun to see what they write)

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Finally I completed the post.
Frankly speaking, it's a tough job.
But I love it, thanks Philip.
Now at least I got a reason to expose my feelings.

Actually an accident happened when I'm doing this, my computer hang.
I download something, and my computer lag then hang.
I hv no option but to restart my computer.
By that time I almost finish writting the post already.
I was very very frustrated that time.
Luckily Vista got recovery mode, and my post was recovered, or else...

Ok lah, don't want to talk too much here.
Please do respond to my post, I'll appreciate that.
Hope u enjoy reading it! ^~^

Sleepless night

It's was the night before my Chemistry test.
I online until around 2.30 a.m., then I feel no mood to study at all, so I went to sleep.
I lay on my bed, my mind start to think of things.
And there's this music playing in my mind, like a radio playing songs continuously in my brain, and I can't stop it.
I guessed I had listened to too much songs maybe.


For more than 2 hours I struggled to sleep, (weird... people struggling to be awake, not to sleep...) then I felt very stress that I can't sleep, and I just punched my pillow as hard as I could to release the stress.
I then threw my pillow on the floor and went out for a walk, hoping a little night breeze could help to clear my mind.
The cooling air did help me a little, but I was still not able to sleep when I went back to my room.

About 4.40 in the morning, I decided to just wake up and study.
At last, I spend the whole morning studying Chemistry with a blur mind.
In the afternoon, I didn't even have time to grab a nap, because there's some stupid talk organized in the campus, and it's compulsory for us to attend it.
I'm impressed that I can still stay awake until my Chemistry test finished.
At least I'm able to do my test paper with a clear enough mind.

Here I am now, haven't sleep yet but instead, posting a blog about my sleepless night.
There are too many things recently that makes me very tension recently.
Luckily the test is over now, and that I can spend more time recovering my stamina.
Actually, I rather enjoy that cool night, where there's no one else awake except me.
It's like I've finally found some peace after the storms.

As for now, I would just like to sleep for whole day long.
So guys, please don't disturb my sweet dreams, ok?
Haha, going to sleep now.
I guessed I'll just end my blog with a goodnight.
Sweet dreams, everyone. ^~^

Hi there

Finally... Now I have time to properly introduce my blog.
Actually, I did do some blogging before this, but mainly in Friendster.
I had an old blogger account, which I created a long time ago but never use it.
Only now that I officially start to blogging using blogspot.
What I want to say is, I like blogging, b'coz it kind of a good way for me to share my feelings, to release my anger, tension and to release stress.
I think many people will agree with me too, right?
Some people who have read my blog said that my posts are very long.
Well, that's my style.
I like to share with people my feelings, just that sometimes people might not understand...

Basically, that's all I want to say about my blog.
I hope people will read what I had written, and appreciate them.
If I just write at my own like, it will be meaningless if there is no one to share with.
So, I hope u guys will like my posts, and don't forget to leave a comment for me after reading them, ok?
God bless... ^~^

Heartbroken

This world is a place where there's no true and pure friendship.
Friends can fight among themselves even for very small matters.
This phenomenon happened on me a few days ago...

I'm deleting this post due to some personal reason.
For those who had read the post, please don't treat it as a big news and spread around.
This is not a joke, it's my feeling that you're playing with.
I'm a very sensitive guy, and my mood swing is very big.
For those of you who are upset with the things I had wrote, I'm truly sorry about that, but u can't blame me, this is my innerworld, this is what I feel.
Besides, I'm sure that I didn't write any negative words or pose any attack to anyone, right?

As I said, I don't want to create a chaos here in my campus.
For those who don't like me, I'm sorry, but this is my style.
I can't change myself just for to get more friends around me.
For all my friends out there, thank you for be friend with me as who I am.
It maybe nothing to you, but you are a part of my world, really...
So, whenever I am down, please do help to pull me up.
I will be very grateful for that...