I've been tagged!! again...

I've been tagged again... by the same fellow named Philip Chan...
Luckily it's not very long, or else I'll spend another 5 hours again doing it.
Below are my sincere answers.. Enjoy reading!! ^~^

Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Raymond Tie / ‘Lemon Tea’ / Ray (Whatever u like to call lah…)
Birth date: 09.12.1988
Current status: Single and available =)
Eye Colour: Black? Brown??
Hair Colour: Errmm… It was black, now it’s copper-colour, will become black again soon…

Layer 2: On the Inside
My Heritage: Malaysia
My Fear: Darkness? Loneliness? Can’t think of specific answers…
My Weakness: Hot-tempered, dependent, lazy…
My Perfect Pizza: Hmmm… almost every kind will suit me…

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
The First Thought of Waking Up: Can I sleep back?? =P
My Bed Time: Between 1~4 am…
My Most Missed Memories: The days in Taiwan… (Miss it a lot...)

Layer 4: My Pick
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi. My Mum said Coke is bad for health. Haha…
McDonald or Burger King: Either one will do…
Single or Group Dates: Group dates?? Who’ll want to date in groups???
Adidas or Nike: Neither… I no money lah…
Tea or Nestea: Nestea, especially Ice Lemon Tea. Haha… =P
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: None of them… I usually don’t drink that, unless I don’t want to sleep…

Layer 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: Nope
Take a Shower: Come on lah… What kind of stupid question is this??
Have A Crush: Hmm... yea…
Go To School: Does uni considered as school?
Believe In Yourself: I got high self-confidence when it comes to my sort of things…
Think you’re A Health Freak: Health freak means what?? I’m quite healthy...

Layer 6: In the Past
Drink Alcohol: Yep, prefer wine...
Gone to the Mall: Shopping mall? Yes, of course…
Dyed Your Hair: Yeah…

Layer 7: Are You Hoping To...
Get Married: Yeah, definitely…
Have Children: Yes, ideal number is four… Haha…

Layer 8: In a Girl
Best Eye Colour: Black? Brown? As long as it’s normal lah…
Best Hair Colour: Hmm… prefer something near to black or brown…
Short or Long Hair: Depends... Usually I like long-hair girls, but then some girls looks pretty with short hair…

Layer 9: What Were You Doing Just Now?
A Minute Ago: Watching movie…
An Hour Ago: Still, watching movie…
Month Ago: One month? I don’t quite remember…
Year ago: Do u really need to know that?? -_-”

Layer 10: I???
I love: God, my family members (the big family), my buddies and my friends…
I hate: Stalkers, liars, backstabbers; there’s quite a number of things I hate…
I hide: My dark side… (Trust me, u don’t want to know about it…)

Layer 11: Tag 5 people
Hmmm… Can I tag back the person who tagged me?? Haha… just joking…
1) Jesse (h.s. king =P)
2) William
3) Shanthini
4) Hui Ching
5) Henry

I'm just a nobody...

I feel like going nuts here...
Undeniable, UTP is a good place to study, but not a very happy place to live in.
My life had been quite messy during my secondary school time, and it was pretty screwed up since I made the decision to further my study here as a engineering student.

I've been here for three semesters, and I feel no less miserable.
During my Foundation year, it was still understandable that my female coursemates don't mix very much with me, who was the only Chemical Engineering Chinese guy that time.
Stepping into my 1st year of engineering this semester, I was looking forward for more non-Malay guys to accompany me.
But my hope immediately crushed, as those guys took even that little attention of me away with them.
I'm now just a nobody among my coursemates, and I doubt they'll even remember me if someone from outside asked them who's with them in the same class.

It's not that I purposely want to make a fuss about it, but I seriously doubt that I can finish my 4 years here in this kind of condition.
I felt a little bit more transparent everyday here in the campus.
Many people might think that I'm isolating myself, but actually I'm not..
How I wish that I have a group of my own, like many others else, eat and study together.
It's very ironic that many people are facing problem with peer group pressure and I don't have any, as there isn't even one group that I truly belongs to.
I know it's a lie if I say I have no friends here in UTP.
I did have some good friends, but then they have their own groups of friends, which I'm not a part of them.
Often when I tried to think of my future here as an engineering student, I saw nothing but dark and empty space.
I can't imagine the years to come, when the study will get tougher and tougher, and people like me will definitely fail without a group to study together.
That's pathetic...

I don't know why God put me in this place.
People are wearing mask every now and then, when they 'socialize' with other people.
I am also wearing a mask of my own, just that my mask is too horrible, that most people won't even care to look at it.
Seriously speaking, if I'm not a Christian, and if it's not for my family whom I loved with all my heart, suicide will be a very favorable thing for me.
I've thought of it too often, until I am so terrified that I might one day walk on that sinful path straight to the burning Hell.
May God find pity in me, and strengthen my heart against this kind of thought.

Sometimes I think I will rather live in my grandfather and my father's year, when people worked for only one purpose, that's to survive.
It might be hard, but then at least I won't have these much conflicts, these much battles within myself.
I felt so weary right now, and my soul longed to soar above the sky, away from all my loneliness and pain.
I only pray God for one thing now, either to show me a path to follow before my hope runs out, or take me into His kingdom, where I no more need to face the world.
I know my prayer is selfish, but that's the only thing I know, and the only thing I can do now...
May God bless me and my years to come.

国油大学华乐团

Initially, I wanted to write this whole blog in Chinese.
But since there are quite a number of 'bananas' in our orchestra team, I might as well write it in English.
I just wanna share about my experience as a player in UTP Chinese Orchestra.
I have no basic in Chinese musical before, but I found myself quite talented since I join the CO team. (ceh.. bangganya... :P)
Anyway, thanks to Gary for giving me the opportunity to be one of the players, and was able to perform for UTP Symphony Fest and also in ConvoFair.
It is my great honor and pleasure to be part of the CO team.
Before I started to say something emo, I just wanna introduce a few important people in Chinese Orchestra team.

1st of all, of course, is our expert teacher, Mr. Goh Suk Liang.
We called him 'senior', since he doesn't want to admit that he's already quite old.
He is a professional, I can say. He plays Maksim's "Bumblebee" using 'Er Hu', imagine that... We were all shocked when he 1st played it in the class. It was awesome....
I always thought Chinese Orchestra only play traditional Chinese songs.
He had me changed my mind about it.
The one I circled in the picture up there is our teacher lah.
See his style of playing, a total professional look..


Next, there are our beloved 'Boss', Gary (left)
and 'Lady Boss', Shu Hui (right).
(I don't know how to interpret 'Lao Ban Niang' in English. Haha... cincai lah...)

They are the busiest 'couple' everytime whenever a performance comes up.
Remember last time during Symphony Fest and ConvoFair, they really had a hard time organizing everything.
Thanks to them, our performances can be said as very successful.
Sometimes they are a bit strict, but of course, it's for the good of all of us.

After that, it is time to introduce some of our players.
There is my 'Lao Da', Xi Yi. He's a talented flutist and drummer, and also a very funny person.
Seriously speaking, I enjoy fooling around with him.
And also Jia Min 'Jie', whom the others called 'Chang Ying' (which means lalat), because she is playing 'Er Hu', and it always make humming sound like the lalat's.
She is a very pretty senior, but sometimes when she gets very frustrated and tension, she can be very fierce also...

There is also our conductor-Henry Yew (he is quite good in Chinese actually, but still, he is a 'banana'.. =P); our 'Yang Qing' player-Xiao Qi 'Jie'; 'Pi Pa'-cute Edrea; our multitasker-Chong; percussion-Guo Lin and Chin; the flutists-Melissa, San Yin and Ong; the most dedicated double-bass player-Pui Wei Jui; another two 'Er Hu' players-Wen Pin and Tnay; Melvin Tan and also our young 'cello mei'-Xuan Hui. Below are some pictures of them:















































Last but not least, the THREE MUSKETEERS.
It is very cool name for a 'humsap' gang, although in Chinese we called it for a different meaning. :P

The leader of the gang, the 'humsap King', Jesse Oliver, is also initially from my hometown.
He is very talented in music, which I envy very much.
He can play different kinds of musical instruments, a multitasker I called him.
I still remember last Symphony Fest, he ran from this edge of the stage from Chinese Orchestra, to the other end of the hall to play in UTP Keronchong, and then ran back here again.
Our boss was so panic when he suddenly disappeared, and he also, ran a big round the hall to find him. That was so cute....
Jesse's so-to-be GF is also a very talented violinist, I guess that's why they are so 'sepadan' with each other. ^o^

The 2nd seat of the 'humsap' gang, William Wan, comes from Penang.
He's already 22 yrs old, but his face doesn't look a bit like 22 yrs old man.
In fact, sometimes I feel like I look older than him.
I always wonder, is he just plainly baby-face? Or is he still immature? Or maybe it is the side effect of being too 'humsap'??
He also can be very feminine sometimes...
I don't understand, how come a person can be 'humsap' but also feminine at the same time??
Hmmm... that'll take some time for me to discover it...

The 3rd person, of course is me lah... =P
Don't misunderstand, the reason that we are in the 'humsap' gang doesn't really means that we are very 'humsap', just that we like to have some "man-and-man" conversations...
I want to state once again, I am a good guy. ^^

Since I am not a very well-rounded person in my batch, the orchestra members are just like family members to me.
I enjoyed every second in Chinese Orchestra, and I never regretted all the time I had spent in practicing.
We eat together, practice together, share jokes together, laugh together.
I felt like somehow if the whole world turns against me, I still have this bunch of friends by my side, to accompany me and to guide me.
It is such a wonderful thing that I am in this big family.
I just don't know how to express that feeling, the feeling as if I have returned to my home.
I wish that UTP Chinese Orchestra will keep on growing in the years to come, and the family will become bigger and stronger in our bonding.
I love you all! Thank you very much!
May God bless UTP Chinese Orchestra and all its members for the years to come. ^~^

Tiring days...

This is so far the most tiring week since the start of my 1st yr 1st semester.
I went to Ipoh two days continuously last weekend, one day for PC fair and another for church service.
I had came back to campus quite late in both days, and one whole day at Ipoh is really tiring, not to mention two...
I was exhausted already when I reached UTP that Sunday night, thus I went to sleep straight away.

Monday's 1st class is at 8am, so I had to wake up early and spent the whole day at lectures and tutorials.
That night, I had my Chinese Orchestra practice at 7.30pm.
Among the 6 songs that we are going to perform in ConvoFair next week, 4 songs are new to me.
Imagine that, I have 4 songs that I don't know how to play, but I am still one the players in the performance next week.
My God, we spent about 4 hours time practicing the songs.
As I am playing flute (Di Zi), I could feel my lips getting numb during the practice.

After the practice, I went back my room and started to work on my lab report, which I have to submit the next day.
I have 3 quizzes going in the morning, which I haven't study at all, and I don't had time to care.
I was damn tired when I finished the report, so I went straight to bed.

Tuesday morning, which is today, I had my 1st quiz of DE at 8am.
I cannot answer any of the questions, and I cannot even copy my friends' answers, because everyone got different questions.
So at the end, I passed up an empty sheet...
The next two quizzes (Phy. Chem & IMSE) were better, since everyone got the same questions and.... errmmm.... u know lah....

Luckily, today is considered over already...
I still have one more lab report and assignment for this week, which I planned to do tonight.
So, I guessed I'll just stop here today.
Happy reading! ^-^